Let It Change
The last few years have been so much change, that my first instinct when I want something I don’t have is to change me or my life or something.
But I’ve done most all my changing. I’m usually happy. I love going to yoga, doing belly dancing, doing my work, etc. I can’t really think of anything within my control to change.
And so I think I’ve entered a period of my life where I’m on the right path; I just need to walk it.
I can’t even think of a resolution for my new year; I’m already on the path to all my goals.
The last year, my body has changed a great deal in reflection of the change in my mind and life. I don’t know what else to change, though. Something must need to, because I’m not where I want to be yet, but I’m trusting that if anything else in me needs to change, yoga will make it happen.
Yoga does change me internally. It makes me feel so happy and joyful and loving, and focusing on work is easier. So I am relaxing and breathing and being present.
And being patient. (Now there’s a hard one!)
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Natasha Fondren is a writer traveling the U.S. in a camper with her four cats. She is currently enjoying the lizards and desert heat in Arizona.
As I’ve said I think my forties were the best time in my life, at least thus far, and they were also the time when I went through the most changes, so, yes, change can be good.
I agree with Eric that I went through my biggest personal changes in my 40s. I don’t know if they were my best years. In many ways, right now I’m having a great year.
And right now I’m happy that you’re fulfilled and happy.
I’ve wanted to do yoga for the last few years but the spinal issues I have have prevented it. I’m sure it would help me. I went through a lot of changes in my 40s and most were for the good, at least eventually.
I haven’t lurked much on the Internet for a long time, but I was fussing around with my laptop tonight updating my gmail address book and I started strolling and walked into this post.
My 4th decade was my best ever. Of course I didn’t necessarily realize it at the time, but I was at the top of my game physically and deliriously happy with hope.
I’m in my 6th decade now. Two hip replacements have put me back at the top of my game for my age. Early this year I traveled Morocco and also volunteered there with young cancer patients. In a few days I leave for Doha, Qatar and then Nepal for 3 weeks to join an international team with the restoration of a Gompa – an extremely remote Buddhist monastery. My relevant point is that I believe there is never any one specific best time in life. I’m amidst my 6th decade and believe I’m just gaining on the satisfying stride I’ve always sought. I’ve invested in a new business and have plans to return to Morocco in March.
Do not worry.
You sound great! If I were Yoga, I’d make you my poster girl.
Thanks, Robin. I feel pretty great, but as in most of life, none of it ever came easy. When I was handed my college diploma, I swiveled on my heels and announced I was joining the then fledgling Peace Corps. My parents essentially said, “No way!” That was an era or maybe it was just me that listened to parents. The ensuing years delightfully tethered me to the duties of marriage and three splendid children and then becoming caregiver to my mother. All are grown or gone now. Less than a year ago, I awoke with a start one morning and announced to the universe, “What am I waiting for?” It was that very day I booked passage to Morocco and it was unbeknownst to me it was also the very day of Sergeant Shriver’s death – the man who had been the driving force behind the Peace Corps. Any subtitles to my poster should include the cliché: It’s never too late. I’ve been richly anointed with the good fortune to have the opportunity to follow my heart’s desire. Hmm, I think I need to post an entry about this at my own site.
Wow, some really great awareness here, Natasha! Change is so difficult. It’s so hard to step out of your comfort zone and push the boundaries, to go beyond what you know into the unknown. Keep doing yoga, pay attention, plan, and then let go. Like a really good performance – you are relaxed and having fun while still in a heightened state of concentration and awareness. It sounds like you’re well on your way – keep us posted on your cha-cha-cha-CHAY-nges!
Patience. Oh my, we need that as writers, but i got so sick of waiting for my agent to hook a publisher that I’m publishing some short stories and a novella myself while she sticks it out with the novel.